3 for moms & 6 for the brokenhearted (often one and the same)

#52, #53, #54

Something I understand with deep intimacy is the gnarly tangle of joy and sorrow that is motherhood. Parenting is hard!  Those little beasts give me the best highs and the most gut-wrenching lows.  And, I worry. Man, do I worry.  Many of the concerns that came in were for your children or your parents but three women in particular touched on something that I think we all fear:  Am I enough? 

 Am I keeping every fragile ball perfectly balanced? Forget perfectly! As long as they aren't in a thousand pieces on the floor I'm doing ok, right?  Why doesn't it feel that way? Again, for the people in the back: parenting is hard!  I joined these women in their honesty and laid my own insecurities down as I prayed for each of them.  

May you seek refuge in the Father's arms and know how perfectly equipped you are.  May you find restorative rest.


The cousin of heartbreak, disappointment. The six clovers above went to people I love that have been profoundly disappointed by people they love.  Each in a season of process and grief.  Unpacking disappointment then putting those pieces back together again to resemble anything beautiful can be a near impossible task.  I pray that these beautiful leaflets serve as reminders that our God sees; your disappointment is known to Him. 

Something happened very quickly on this little prayer journey.  I longed to pray.  I wanted my work day to end so I could pray.  I have gone through seasons in my life where I was always prayerful, always mindful of the Spirit around me, and know that you don't have to be in a posture of prayer to be with God but this filled me in a way I can't describe.  Focusing on each of you empowered me. Thank you for that gift.  Thank you for trusting me and being vulnerable enough to lay it all out there.  I am thankful to share my clovers with you. 

 Some of my brokenness was healed through this journey and owe you my gratitude.

Thankful,
Nicole Astra

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  1. Peace Baby22 August 2019 at 08:57

    We may not always recognize it, but we are never alone.

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